I'm going to start addressing these posts to Team Miner. I believe you're all on Jeff's team. I'll start now.
Today has been tough. Poor Stella has an ear infection. In the grand scheme of things, not a big deal, but these little things kind of add up to make you feel like there's a nasty black cloud over your entire family. And, still, uncertainty is the only way to describe Jeff's diagnosis. He's undergoing some more tests today (hence the title of this post). I knew from watching some episodes of "House" back in the day that (apparently) diagnostics often come down to the process of elimination, but I'm tired, really really tired of waiting. I'm extremely glad that we have Robin and Emily here or I would be utterly falling apart.
I haven't had time to update the website we'll be using to coordinate support and care. Hopefully I will do so soon. I know that the visits Jeff has received have been very helpful for his spirits, and mine, since I can't be with him nearly as much as I would like to be.
It is blowing my mind to think of where we were a week ago. Last Monday, we took Lydia to her two month doctors' appointment together. Then I dropped him off at BART and he went to Berkeley, met with students and was out and about. He came home from work tired at the end of the day and laid down immediately.
When he woke up, I was pissed because I felt like I had had a tough day dealing with an unusually fussy Lydia after her two month vaccinations. I emoted (aired my grievances) and Jeff was so understanding. On the one hand, I'm glad I did because I think my frustration with his symptoms of tiredness, fatigue, and shortness of breath (maybe) got him into the doctor sooner. On the other hand, I'd do anything right now to take back any harsh words I've ever said to him.
Be kind to the people you love, and GO TEAM.